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I'm currently battling with LGL Leuekmia, Adult Onset Cyclic Neutropenia, and Lupus.

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posted 6 hours ago on 23/4/2014 with 257296 notes
via dakotaaaa © versaceslut

One thing that isn’t mentioned enough about cancer and chemo … Mouth sores. And I mean EVERYWHERE.

I’ve gotten used to the ones in my mouth; to an extent. I have 3-4 different meds for them and they work… To an extent. I’m really glad I don’t get them in the back of my throat, like some do (sounds absolutely miserable!)

But now I feel the early warning signs of a cold sore coming in along with my constant mouth sores. And I get the feeling Abreva ain’t gonna work on this - I’ll likely need antibiotics for it since my immune system is so dead in the water.

I tell ya, two auto-immune disorders, IvG levels on the lower end, and a leukemia? Sometimes I don’t know how my body hasn’t conked completely out yet. My immune system is a major derp lol. Anddd I get to fly tomorrow which means my immune system is going to be under even more stress then usual. Goody. 😒

Just as an aside; Magic mouthwash does WONDERS but you have to usually specifically request it from your doctor because each dose is compounded differently. What has worked for me is viscous lidocaine, Benadryl, and malox. At least numbs things long enough to eat. Just a pro tip!

posted 2 days ago on 22/4/2014 with 1 notes
#cancer #chemo #leukemia #mouth sores #cold sore


so im fucked then.

posted 3 days ago on 20/4/2014 with 2004 notes
via safety-officer-barto © psychofactz

So I just feel the need to say that tonight with my family, Dallas Buyers Club was mentioned and I blurted, “But its so transphobic.” And my family asked me why and I told them, sanely and rationally how it’s important to have real, accurate representation of people who need a voice and need portrayal (and how Jared Leto was NOT) and that there are perfectly good trans people who would’ve been perfect for the role and someone said, “but who has the star power to bring in people that’s big enough” and I was like, “Laverne Cox is a beautiful, wonderfully amazing trans Actress and would’ve been perfect for the role.”

And, and… They all nodded their heads and agreed with me and how we need to be inclusive and holy shit tumblr what have you done to me?! This. Was. Awesome!

posted 3 days ago on 20/4/2014 with 1 notes
#laverne cox #dallas buyers club #trans #trans inclusive #tumblr changed me #and now my family #thats pretty awesome #personal

posted 3 days ago on 20/4/2014 with 446 notes
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posted 3 days ago on 20/4/2014 with 6499 notes
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posted 4 days ago on 20/4/2014 with 3961 notes
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Having Chronic Illness is…



.. knowing you have a ton of things to do but accepting the fact that the urge to nap will heavily outweigh all semblance of reason.


no it’s not 

Well hi there, McCrankypants!

I’m the OP and I have three chronic illnesses. It was meant to be funny, and a lot of people obviously agree with it. A lot of people in the chronic illness community on tumblr post stuff like this to cheer each other up, because life really sucks ass sometimes when you’ve got chronic illness. And a lot of the time, these people need naps to thrive and survive. And people don’t always understand. So yeah.

posted 4 days ago on 19/4/2014 with 156 notes
via themarktomandtravisblow © hai-lei
#smh #fucking people #like really? #who pissed in your cheerios #damn at least i aint this passive agressive about shit

So… I’m staying with my Dad, Step-Mom, Half Brother and Half Sister for the weekend to get a break from all my health stuff and like, it’s hard being here.

On the one hand, I get to see my siblings and I love them very dearly but then I’ve been noticing the subtle changes from my life versus theirs and it’s very irksome.

Every little detail of their lives is catered to, and everything is covered without them needing to worry about a thing. My brothers doom room, food, money for school supplies… all of it is made sure he is ok at college. You know who helped me apply to schools? Nobody but myself. My Opa’s inheritance and FAFSA got me through school and I worked while I went to school to make sure my traveling and food needs were covered. I lived with friends and on my own in a 10x15 foot studio because dorm living was far to expensive. My brother has never worked a day in his life. I’ve been working since it was legal for me to do so. Part of the reason I couldn’t finish school was because of money. Today my dad talked to me about them going to Grad school.

My sister, is working, but she rarely spends any of her own money (to my knowledge). Her medicine is covered. Food. Gas. Clothing. Non-essentials. All of it is completely covered. Things I stress about on a regular basis. I haven’t had a hair cut in a year. My glasses are three years old. I rarely buy new clothing for myself. I’m on food stamps.

My brother got a free ride to Italy his Senior year. My sister in a month? France. I sold candy bars to make enough money to go to Spain with my art class when I was 16.

I don’t want to complain because my dad has done a ton for me and I’d be royally screwed without him but like… why couldn’t I have that? Why can’t I have those things? About 90% of the things that stress me the fuck out would be totally inconsequential if I was in their shoes. I’m glad they never had to go through what I’ve been through. But I am incredibly jealous as well. Is that wrong?

posted 5 days ago on 18/4/2014 with 3 notes
#personal #slightly upset #raw end of the deal





A skeleton of a mother, and her baby, who both died during her pregnancy.

this is so fucking cool

how on earth is this cool this is literally the remains of a mother and a child she never even got to see. have some respect smh

its cool because its an intact skeleton within an intact skeleton. sad sure, but still cool, get off the pedestal. 

I’m not sure if this is even real? Pretty sure babies don’t go THAT far up the ribcage. And even if it did, it’d likely be breach and would’ve died anyways, depending on the time era they died in (breach babies are relatively common now but are easily fixed.)

posted 5 days ago on 18/4/2014 with 292068 notes
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